A lil life update – yet again!
I have decided not to go to grad school! Woo!
After a year of contemplation, many advisements, several chats, and loads of advice, I decided it isn’t the thing for me.
Ever since I was little, I have wanted to be a wife and mom. For a while, in recent years, I thought maybe I’d want to be in a corporate position or be a badass boss…but truthfully, I’d rather leave work at work, come home with no worries, and enjoy time with my family.
While having a higher degree is incredible, it won’t get me that family time that I want. It won’t get me my dream job – doing stuff I love and not climbing the ladder.
My definition of success has been skewed lately. Success, to me, isn’t having the highest position at work. It’s being mentally and physically happy, supporting a family I love, attending a job that brings me joy and growing as an individual!
So, ultimately, I decided that it’s time to throw in the academic towel. I hate school, and I’m proud of myself for making it this far. I am months away from being done, and sometimes it’s okay to not always be uber busy. So, once I get the Bachelor (hehe), I am done with college!
While some people will disagree with me or think I’m making a mistake, this is what I want. It’s probably what I need, too. As someone with OCD, it can feel impossible for me to set down the textbooks. While I want to enjoy date nights or working on the house, homework is constantly tiring my brain.
I think that I’m really fortunate to go through all of this at this stage of my life. I wanted to work full-time and go to school full-time. After 1-2 years of that, I realize that I really love enjoying life instead.
Sitting by the fire, walking the dogs, attending concerts, watching Hallmark Christmas movies with 0 guilt, starting a home project, laying on the couch after a bummer day, and so on.
Those are the things I live for.
For a while, I was living to work on my degree and career. After talking to so many people who regret that, and seeing how much I miss enjoying my time, I have decided to work to live- not live to work And while I’m at it, I want to chase after careers that I’d love.
For a while, I contemplated doing accounting. Not because I love accounting, but because it made decent money. While work isn’t your life, it is 40 hours of your week…why spend it doing something you don’t really like? Sure, corporate is awesome, and kudos to those who enjoy it.
But for me? I enjoy designing, working with customers, chatting, working on a project, collaborating, using my imagination, setting things up, planning, etc. So, those are the things I’m going to pursue.
I hope that you understand where I’m coming from! Aren’t we all just trying to figure it out? That’s what I want to do, too! Just figure out the best way to live my life – it’s short, after all. I don’t want to waste my days worrying about getting an A or if another employee will call off. I want to worry if my kids have enough sunscreen on at the zoo, worry if Dawson and I will make our dinner reservation, worry if my dog had one too many chicken fries, and so on.
If that’s not your jam, your version of success, or your desire – good for you! But I realize that it’s mine, so that’s what I’m rolling with.
But, for now, I have 12 weeks left of school. The most challenging classes I’ve ever had are currently underway, and while I’m seriously stressed and have one hell of a headache, I’m pretty excited and grateful to be so near the end.
Thanks for following along! ❤